The Beauty of Life

Over the weekend my grandfather had a stroke. He is 78 years old and he is a wonderful man. His wife, my father's stepmother, passed away 20 years ago and he has been miserable ever since. He never moved on and barely left his house after her death. He was in this horrible depression for the past 20 years. So, he had this stroke over the weekend and the hospital put him on life support. His wish was not to be placed on life support and if he passed to not resuscitate him. So yesterday we took him off life support and it seemed like he literally had this sigh of relief. It was this peaceful deep release. We sat around with him and talked to him and reminisced about the beauty of his life and his many children and grandchildren and great grandchildren. I kissed his head and told him how much I loved him and I told him it was ok he could let go and be with his wife and even in his comatose state he smiled. It was beautiful. He is still alive and fighting but it is only a matter of time. And what I find weird is that I am more happy for him than I am sad. Don't get me wrong I am sad for my loss...I love my grandpa but I know he has been miserable without his beautiful wife. Hopefully he will realize that we are ok and he can go and be with her....

Then this morning I got to see the other side of life...my friend Ana is 5 months pregnant. She is such a great person and is going to have the hard life of single mommy. So normally I or her sisters go to her doctor appointments with her. This morning my sons and I wake up extra early to go to her ultra sound. We see this tiny little human in her belly. His heart was beating a mile a minute. It was AWESOME! It made me think about how great it felt when I was pregnant. Their little kicks, Wake's butt sticking out of the front of my shirt. Yeah...he was butt sticker outter. It just made me realize how precious life is and how short out time on earth is.

So to sum up what I am thinking...in less than 24 hours I got to see the beauty of life anew and death. We have this beautiful little baby boy coming and my wonderful grandfather will finally be at peace with the woman he loves. How awesome is that!